I Remember

I started some therapy yesterday. I cherish the memories that bringing with my ex brought. So I thought of a good way to keep the memories without fighting to keep them. I've started a list of all the things that I remember about being with him. Good memories that occurred for us both. So in this way, I won't feel the need to fight to remember them. It might seem like this method would bring more memories on...but I think it's working, I feel less stressed once I write these memories down. That way, I will always have them but they won't have to be in forefront of my mind. Just like we talked about baby!

I wouldn't list them here because the list is absolutely huge and ongoing for the time being. These memories encompass seven years so it's no wonder the list is so huge and so long. But I will keep this list. I might not look at it often...but it will always be there. Like a part of him will always be with me.

And now for a private service announcement:
And yes, I read your blog. That's no secret. As you read mine. When I read something that makes me mad, I don't lash out. Makes me wonder. Anyway, you have no idea what was said in me and my ex's life. You don't know the conversations, things that were said, feelings that were had. And you will never know and you will never understand. And I wouldn't expect you to understand. Not sure what your problem is. You have what you want, so why do you insist to soil my memories and what I have. You have your life and it's totally separate from mine. And mine is separate from yours. I realize this. There's no need to get your panties in a bunch. I'm not in a competition with anybody. So I have no idea why you are acting like I'm competing. I'm writing what I feel. That's what a blog is. Just so you know, I will continue to write about what I feel. Like I said, if it offends anybody, just don't read. And this is my therapy, if anybody, I would think you would like me to get over him the most. So you stick to writing about your life and I'll write about mine.

Focus on your own life please. The life I focus on is mine and my past. I'm chilled out and you should be too! So yes, I repeat, I loved my ex's son. The things that we did and said concerning him, were done when we were young and that's how we rolled. Once again, I don't expect you to understand. We were a family. No, not anymore, but I recognize what I had in my past. I lost that, I don't have it anymore. But I have my future. But that doesn't mean I have to totally forget my past because it makes me a part of who I am. In the end, what I write doesn't matter to your life. It shouldn't matter to you how I feel about him or anybody else. Just know that he loves you. So just chill out, read my blog, and enjoy your life, and mine too since your reading. Have a great day! :)