My Computer is Superfast!

So J got my new computer going yesterday. Holy Crap it's fast!!!!! I didn't know how crappy my machine was at the time but now I do. Well it probably wasn't bad when I first got it but it was really time for an upgrade. So it's all thanks to J. He really is a super genius.

But I'm sad too. Because J is leaving this weekend to go visit his kids. I know we will miss each other terribly and think of each other all the time but it's not the same. I'ts hard enough getting out of bed to go to work, but now we have to go the whole weekend. Waking up definitely won't be the same.

It's Enough To Make Me Not Want To Be A Hero

So I watched the season opener of Heroes. And true to Heroes form, it left me with more questions than answers (even though I did receive some answers). I was lucky enough not to have anybody spoil it for me. Seeing all the drama that people with super powers go through, it makes me think twice about having super powers. I think I'll just stay a normal person, thank you very much.

This show draws me in (which is what it's supposed to do) and it definitely has me wanting more. I love that it's not your average super hero show. You think you know who is a hero, and then they turn out to be a villain or vice versa. The show is amazing and for anybody who would love a good drama/thriller/comedy/whatever, get into Heroes, you won't regret it.

And The Lights Came On

So the power came back on Saturday afternoon. It was a long, long week. I found out that I can live without power but I really don't want to. I found out that nothing is boring about lying with J for hours. And I found out that it gets really dark, really quickly.

But some exciting news. New computers are coming today! More info later!

Day 6 and I Think We Are Starting To Go Crazy

It's Day Six with no power. They said it could be up to a week. I'm trying to resolve myself to the fact that I will be in the last thousand to get power. Last night, we went to Steak 'N' Shake to get us out of the house. I think it did a little good. Nothing a Frisco Melt can't cure.

Needless to say, I've been getting a lot of reading done. I'm thankful that I can take showers at the gym but everything else either costs gas or money which I have none of atm.

But I think I forgot to talk about the fun I had at the Louisville Zoo. My work had a company picnic there and the food was sooooo good. They had face painting for the kids and those inflatable bounce things too. Alana got Scotty the baby elephant on her face and Devonna got her whole face painted like a polar bear. I think seeing the animals was kind of sad. Louisville Zoo definitely needs to give those animals some enrichment. The enclosures are so small and bare. I'm sure that they don't have a lot of room to grow as the zoo is in an urban environment but /shrug.

So this weekend will be another weekend without power. I feel kind of indifferent towards it. I hope it's different. I will let you all know.

In The Minds of Children

I came across the website of this guy that makes illustrations out of children's drawings. It's enthralling and there is no way that you can look away. I wonder if this is what children are really thinking? Who will ever know.

Living Life in the Dark

No, the title of my blog is not me philosophizing about my life or anybody else's life. I am literally living life in the dark. A wind storm knocked the power out Sunday for 275,000 people in the Louisville area. As far as I know, right now, I still have no power.

So what do you do when the power is out? You cuddle, and read. I could play board games but the cuddling is a better idea. Surprisingly, I'm not bored like you would think I would be. J keeps me thoroughly entertained. I am slightly sad because I'm missing my TV shows but then I think *shrug* That's the internet is for. But my brilliant bf helped a lot by finding some LED lights in the fixture section that nobody thought to look for. So at least I have light.

So I see truck after truck driving down the street and I hope that it's going for our place. The Ryder Cup is going on right now so I know all of the golf people have electricity. That's just how it goes sometimes. And I'm soooooo busy at work, I hardly ever have time to post. But I'll try to catch you all up on what's going on with my life eventually.

Friendships Are A Must

So as my friends know, friendships are very important to me. I get emotionally committed to someone very fast. That's just how I've always been. That leaves me open to hurt and very vulnerable, but it also allows me to have the opportunity have form wonderful friendships and relationships.

When I was younger I had five "best" friends. Even now I look back and see how that could have been possible. The definition of best doesn't even allow that. They were all really close friends at that point I suppose. Now that I'm older, a lot of those friends have moved away and we talk less and less. That happens as people get older but it's still sad. Now the person I count as my best friend is the one that I spend almost every day with.

But as I have gotten older and started to use the net, I've found another mode of friendship. I've found online friends that are just as rewarding as real life friends. When I was younger, I used to think only lonely people would be friends with people online. When I turned 18, I discovered the internet and actually made a lot of friends online. I used to be rather shy because of my stutter and making friends online seemed to be easier. Plus, I found that I could express my feelings a little better online than in real life. So I tended to hide behind the internet to express my feelings. But I digress.

I have found online friendships that have lasted years. And they have evolved to real life friendships and people have become as good a friend if not better than real life friends. I've found I can be more open and allow them to see me as I really am which helps me to be myself offline. Offline friendships turn into in person friendships (Danny and Shanna) and life partnerships (J) and life changing friendships (D). I love who I am now. My friends have helped me to realize this. I value friendships more now than I ever knew possible. So thank you to all of my friends, for helping to shape me into woh I know now.